Renewal and Reconnect.

Years with loads of experiences has passed by. Daily life experiences influenced every bit of my being. Places I’ve seen that taught me our differences in our way of living. People I’ve met who shared their life and make me understand things through them. 

We all are different but the same. We all are born and brought up differently but the same. We are all the same. We all try to live every day.

As I go through my routine, I remember I was once tried to open-up to the world. There’s a footprint I left somewhere to revisit my old habits. I can share or write anything I wanted without judgement from anyone. I was busy trying to make images and revising codes to make the blog look fancy. I do not really intend to beautify it to impress other people but myself. That’s just how I make myself engaged and to self-reflect.

This isn’t meant to become my diary. I am not even a good writer, its just an outlet of a busy mind. There are episodes in my life that brought me stones I meant to pick up and I will try to best to share it with everyone and hope that someone can get something useful from it.

This is my renewal.

In my little way...

How does it feel in a day of your life you are helping other people? Feels great right? Even after all you will get a “thank you”, the feeling is hard to explain. I was crossing the street this morning and I saw a grandma waiting for her chance to cross the street too. I am embarrassed to those inconsiderate drivers who can’t even stop for a while to let the woman cross the street. She is holding her walking stick standing and those people who are crossing don’t even really care.

I stand beside her, hold her hand and help her cross the street. It feels great that I saw a smile on her face after that. When you get old like her, does it feels great to know that younger people value and respect you? Why some people can’t think of helping other as simple as that? Yes I am proud of myself that in my little way of helping the woman, my day was in good start and worthy. I feel ashamed to those numb people who ignore simple things like that.

Stand and walk again just like other...

I know many people are going through trials in life.

Many of us are struggling to have a happy and complete life.

Unfortunately, we are not destined to be happy always like the way we wanted to be.

We are destined only to go on and move on with life no matter how hard it is to face the trials given to us.

No matter what life brings you, you must stay strong and never lose hope.

Just think that it’s not only you who’s experiencing the same problem.

It’s not only you who is suffering from emotional depression. Everybody does.

Life doesn’t always end in the darkness side.

There’s still light in the end that will make you feel better and relief.

You may seem to feel that life is so unfair.

Tomorrow, you will soon understand that life includes all the things happened in your life.

You just have to stand and walk again even after many fall…

Just like any other people...

Should I Stop or Should I go?

Falling in love is unexplainable. You don’t know how and why but you just felt it.
Out from your busy world, you never realize that there is someone out there looking at you and start to admire you.
As time goes by, you fall too… and it’s somehow a fulfillment when you know that he’/ she’s there to catch you. Love is in the air!!! As you go through the relationship, you begin to know each other better and deeper. You already know what he/she likes and not.
Your patience became longer. No more childish acts except when you’re just trying to be sweet. The relationship went well. The love became strong. The seed of trust has already planted and grew like tree.
But, what will you do when all of a sudden one says, due to religion matters, you can’t be together? Or Due to traditional beliefs you can’t be together?
It’s like an apple in your hand but you can’t eat it because it’s not yours and you’re not allowed to. It’s like lovely flowers from someone’s garden surrounded by high fences and you can’t pick it but only look at it.
It’s like you were driving fast on the road to catch a flight. Should you beat the red light to get there on time and fly away or Stop and let the plane go…
Beating the red light is somehow beating the rules just to be with someone you love.
But consequences are, when you beat the rules, are you ready to pay charges of your action? If you stop and let it go, are you ready to start a new life again?
Both hard…

Anger won't help at all

Sometimes, no matter how hard trying not to loose temper, your anger would still beat you. No matter how hard not to give offensive words, you can’t still control your mouth to shut. No matter how hard not to do things that may hurt someone; you can’t have the power over it to stop. This is because we are angry or mad at someone.

Sometimes, we decided on things when we are irritated. Do you think it is right? Do you think it will help you solve your problem? There is no good in making a decision when you are emotionally unconditioned. Am I right? That is because when we are angry, our mind and heart is listening to your other self who gives negative advice which is not helpful.

When making a decision, make sure you are in condition and no emotional discharge.
Else, everything will go wrong… Condition yourself first before doing such actions.
Anger won’t help you. You are matured enough to know when is the right time to make such actions. Be responsible enough for any actions that you may be doing.

You have a choice

You have a choice.
In everything that you do, you always have a choice.
In school, if you want to pass the exam, you have a choice to
study or not. Expect a pass or failed grade.
In the office, sometimes we feel like so tired of going to a
place over and over again with a bunch of work in your desk. You
always have the choice to come or not to come. Expect a promotion
or get domoted.
In love, if someone dumped you, you have a choice to dump him
too. You have a choice to love the person even after all the
things done to you. Expect a love back or a hoping person forever.
In everything that you do and in everything that you have, you
always have the choice on how are you going to handle it.Try to look over the things. Try to imagine what might happen. Worst come to Worst or or something even better.

Undisciplined

Who doesn't want to start their day Happy?No one, right?
Some people are unaware of their actions and leads to
undisciplined manner which is kinda disappointing.I am on my way going to the office. I reached my destination and
when I was about to get off from a jeepney ride, these bunch of
people block the door and tried to go inside. How can I go out
properly when they are there blocking my way? How can they sit if
we are still inside? Why can't they wait till we free up the
seat? The door is too tight for us to go out and for them to get inside
at the same time. I even hit the door with my head.In frustration, i lose my temper and say,Can you please move away from the door so we can move out and u
can get in?
Even though they are late or whatever reason why they were in a
hurry getting inside, sometimes we should keep on watching our
action.
Is it hard to give way first and wait for your turn?"Haste makes waste" remember that always.
It always happen in any public transportation like train,bus,
taxi, etc.
We are longing for a good and peaceful country, right?But how can we have that in place if in a simple way we can't do
it in ourselves?
This is also a matter of applying the "give and take
relationship"
If we do this over and over again, I think it will be too hard
for us to move on and its frustrating...

Not Yesterday Not Tomorrow, But NOW.

There’s always a reason
…why we’ve met each other
…why I learn to love you same way you do or even more that you do.
What we know now is that, we are together.
We might not know what will happen tomorrow
But I want you to know, I love you now and I hope this will last forever.

We met different types of people for whatever reason.
Not knowing why, it’s just meant to happen.
Along the way, we started to fall to that very special person.
Starting to love everything… everything they’ve got.
As the time goes by, the love work both ways…
Share everything through the name of love.
Feels great right?
We might not know what will happen tomorrow
At least we know now, we have someone to love and to lean on.
Someone who will take care of us and someone to be taken care of.
The most important thing is now. So make the most of it till it’s not over.

Unloading thoughts in mind

I am alone in the room.
Writing what’s on my mind.
I don’t have any subject to write about.
I just do.
And now, I have few lines created.
What would be the next?
Thoughts in my mind are bare.
No emotional stuffs to put in writing.
I just want to construct something out of nothing.
Is this worth it?
What do you think?
Have you done something like this?
I bet you do.
You can’t just do something until you suddenly do something.
Without even thinking what would you really want to achieve.
Now, this is it.

This is something like outlet of your unknown thoughts.
With all the things that makes you think so hard and so deep can make your mind or thoughts became empty.
And now you don’t know where to start until you begin at something that’s not really on your mind to begin with.

Somehow it can help relax your mind, am I right?
Yes it is. Your mind was like doing some exercise.
Feel the difference between doing something with your mind working really hard and
doing something freely out of your mind’s thought.
It’s less stressful at the same time, unloading your heavy thoughts in mind.

Person that fits

Everybody knows nobody's perfect.
So dont always expect a perfect person.
Let's talk about how can we make a person perfect for us.
I personally dont know how. Standards are not set yet.
The big question is, do we really have to set a standard to make a person
perfect for our eyes? Wait! We are getting personal here.
Let's have some general discussions about "Perfect" or "Ideal"

Being a perfect person will always depend on what other sees you or depends on the position that fits for you.

Lets have some example here:

You are perfect to someone's eyes. You became ideal because of what that person sees on you.
Sometimes you are not aware of it but being you will always be perfect as they adore you.
For some people, you are nothing but for the person who likes you will disregard everything
negative coz you are the apple of their eyes.

You are perfect for the job. You are hired because you fits in the position. You are capable of doing such things
according to the job that you have. This is not all about the physical and emotional aspect. This is about what
you can do and what other sees on you.

We are all not perfect but we can be perfect in some things and for some people.
We can't do everything but we can be good at something and more like the ideal one.
Acceptance from other people makes us perfect.
Learning from ourselves makes us perfect too or called faultless.
Remember, "Practice makes you perfect"
See... It always work on both ways.
If you want to be good at something, you have learn and make other accept you for what you can do
and can possibly make you a person that fits.

Factors why teenagers losing their way

Most of the teenagers nowadays are encircled with temptations.
Their experience is not enough to guide them in making decision and dealing with daily life.
This is why elders or older one must keep an eye for guidance.

I have notice that there are lots of teenagers these days lost their way.
They have given an instant responsibility at the wrong time.
The responsibility I am talking with is unwanted pregnancy.

Why does this happen?
Teenagers just want to explore life. Some factors that trigger these kind of incident are the following:
- Environment.
- Movies and televisions
- People around them.

Let’s tackle it one by one.

Environment: A person's environment can somehow affect a person's lifestyle, attitude, perspective in life, etc.
Yes, not all us can afford to choose and live the life according to what we want. Of course, the type of family you have will always counts. In this case, we need parents help to guide their children/teens.
Take note that it is parent's responsibility to take care of their child but as a concern citizen, we should impart our knowledge to build a good community as well.

Movies and Televisions: What we watch/see can become our deeds and a habit. For younger ones, we should let them see what
is appropriate with their age. Also, let them understand why they need to get away from prohibited programs this time.

People around them: Traits from people around younger ones can also affect the way they think or they act.
For elders, avoid acting something inappropriate to younger's eye. Show them the right attitude to live with.
Younger ones almost follow what they see in elders. You cannot control other unaware people regarding this
issue or let's just say " People who don’t care". What we can do is to let younger one understand everything.
Share stories and insight, this way, they can slowly understand what is happening around them.
They can slowly understand and aware of what should be done or not.

Your Life Your Rule

I am sad because

... i am disappointed.

... i am hurt.

... i am hopeless.

... no one loves me.

... i feel so alone.

... they all left me.

... they dont care bout me.

... i lost someone.

... i failed.

... some steal my stuff.

These are the few reason why you are sad.

Too many factors causes you to be sad.

But have you think that there are also too many reasons to be happy?

Why let sad things control you?

Because you are weak?

No, you are not. You're just dont want to fight.

Things around you dont exactly have control to rule you.

It will always be you. Its you who to decide and who to deal with, right?

So whatever happens, it will always be your rule.

Why dont we rephrase it.

I am sad because

... i am disappointed but I can make it up again next time.

... i am hurt but I will be strong next time and learn from it.

... i am hopeless but it will not be forever hopeless. I can still find a way.

... no one loves me but I can show people that I am deserving to be loved.

... i feel so alone but this will make me strong in the other way.

... they all left me but I can change to make them back to me.

... they dont care bout me but not all.

... i lost someone but Its not the end.

... i failed but I can be better next time.

... some steal my stuff but its just a stuff which I can replace.

It turned out better right?

How's the feeling? even better?

see... if will always be your rule.

You can always start

A sunrise after loosing someone is waiting for you.

Yes, its hard to accept that the one we love gone already.

Its hard to think that you cant be with that person again.

Its hard to imagine that you can never talk to that person with your sweet stories.

Its hard to imagine that you cant grow again with that person.

Yes, its hard but time will heal if you let it heal you.

There's always beginning. If you choose to start again, you can start again.

But if you choose to be left behind from yesterday, nothing's gonna happen to you.

You will be stuck up for the rest of your life.

You're blocking yourself to the road of happiness.

There's no other option but to move on.

Try to think of positive and happy thoughts.

Try to appreciate things and people around you.

Its like you are in a puzzled garden, trying to find your way out.

If you dont walk and look around, you wont be able to find your way out.

You wont be able to witness things outside.

It would take sometime but right time will always be just in front of you.

Just walk to reach it.Move on but dont forget the sweet memories from the past.

The person who left us physically will always stay in your heart.

They are just around looking very proud of you

Coz they know that you still stand no matter what.

It will all get better in time

There will always be a time in your life wherein you feel like hopeless.

Trials, Problems, Storms or whatever you want to call it, strikes at the same time.

You dont even had the chance to give yourself a break.

No one's to blame.And blaming will not help in the first place.

Sometimes there are uncontrolled things in life that you need to face.

Its hard to keep going coz you think, there's no way out.

Its hard to walk in the middle of a thunder storm coz you think your not strong enough to continue walking.

You think you do not have enough strength to stand against heavy wind of life.

It will always be our decision to stay and be stranded or to keep walking to reach the finish line.

Keep in mind that there is always day and night.Sun will rise no matter what.

Keep fighting and be strong.Learn from the darkness of life.

For it will make you strong more than you could imagine.Be smart enough to play life.

Everything will get better in time.Just the right time...

Love battlefield

I tried to find you among these people.
I failed many times trying to look out for you.
I hurted many times to test if its really you.
I thought its all over when you suddenly came.
I thought i will never be happy again when you suddenly make me smile.
I am so thankful when I know I now have you.

Sometimes we are in a hurry finding someone you can give your sweet love.We thought we're running out of person to love.Where in every one owned one and they expected you to have one too.Funny thing right?Where is Mr/Ms Right? Now you decided to look for that person.Experimenting... Trying to love and get hurt.Till you find him/her.Now you are ready.With all the hurt you had, you are matured now to handle things.Ready to be strong with your Mr/Ms Right?Isnt nice to know that you loved someone you thought she/he would be the last butbecame the way for you to became strong and mature in handling relationship withthe person you destined to?Loving feeling... Crazy but sweetest thing that can happen to you...

Loosing for the win.

Does it feel good when your competing with someone you know who cant win?

You were like "I am the best"

Sometimes, most of them are doing anything to win.

Even the worst thing in the world for the win.

So to make that person stop being so stupid on you

You'll just let him get whatever he/she wants

But at the back of your mind, you are laughing out loud and saying

"Sometimes the best win is losing for someone who wants to win badly but cant win."

Feeling bad

when you feel bad sometimes

You cant really hide it.

Even though u want to

You just cant do it.

Its really hard hiding what you really feel inside.

The feeling is like, there's a bomb that wants to explode inside you.

Putting it into writings to lessen the hard feelings Or

Shouting out loud and do something and make yourself so busy to forget about it

This is sometime a good bad feelings reliever.

Are you going to ask why I am saying this?

You are right, Im feeling bad today for whatever reason. :(

Who doesnt want to sweat and smell good?

Of course no one! I got this message from an email. I know its common to see things on how to take care of ourselves but sometimes we almost forgot to do it because of our pretty busy day.
Here are some pointers that can somehow remind us all about on how it feels like to be so clean inside and out.


* Take a warm shower daily using a natural loaf and strong-smelling soap or pamper yourself with a beautiful scented shower gel. You can take a shower more than once a day according to your skin nature. You could also use anti-bacterial soap or cleanser with a moisture.

* Drink large amounts of water and fresh juice everyday.

* Eat a lot of fruits and vegetables everyday and avoid food that contains caffeine like chocolate, tea, coffee, along with pungent food, pastrami, and hilbah (fenugreek) seeds.

* Change your clothes when they get dirty, greasy, and full of sweat and wash them immediately; that includes what you wear indoors and outdoors and your sleeping gown/pajamas, and of course change your underwear daily.

* Remove your underarm hair on a regular basis.

* Use suitable kinds of deodorant directly after shower. They come in different forms, such as powder, cream, splash, and roll-on. First You have to be sure that it doesn't contain alcohol so as not to blacken your underarm. For girls especially, you can use natural fruit deodorants. They smell good and at the same time they are not very strong scented.

* Avoid synthetic clothes that are purely made of nylon and polyester. Exchange them with clothes made of cotton as it absorbs the sweat and does not cause dermatitis (skin inflammation). Or at least you can wear cotton underwear as it is the closest thing to your skin.

* Spraying perfume under your armpits won't hide the bad smell. Instead, It will react with sweat salts causing dermatitis, black and dark areas in the skin. Plus, alcohol evaporates real fast!

* If you're allergic to regular deodorants or don't like them, there's quite a wonderful natural option: crystal deodorant rock. It's very cheap and odorless, and it doesn't have any side effects. It can be found in herbal shops.

Waking up is the hardest part.

When you’re dreaming with a broken heart, waking up is the hardest part.
I got this line from “Dreaming with a broken heart song by John Mayer”.

In a relationship, we can’t tell how long it will last and it what way it will be done or finish.
In love, we felt that unexplainable feelings. It’s true that you can’t keep yourself not smiling. A person sees you like you’re blooming and inspired over things.
The sad part of it is, when you reach a point where in a relation must stop. It is a point where in a relationship can’t work anymore for both parties.

I know it’s hard to move on especially when you really love a person.
And it takes time to heal that broken heart.

You have an option now, move on or stay in a position where in the person you love doesn’t love you anymore?

Or vice versa, tell your partner that the feeling is not mutual anymore or stay in a position where in you can’t bring back the love to your partner?

Both hard! Right? But it’s better to be true to yourself first than pretending something that you’re not.

Your Happiness will always depend on you.

I was reading some post over the internet until I saw this line “you must not depend on other person to be happy” This line made me think of something interesting in which everyone is applicable to this phrase.
All of us can be happy in different way. In order to attain happiness, you must know what those things are.

If you now know what you really want, everything else will follow.
All your happiness will always depend on you. It will always depend on the decisions that you are going to make. Along the way, hindrances or obstacles are default. You just have to use you strategy or technique to get through it. You may fail once or twice but never give up.

A person who wants to achieve something doesn’t stop at a certain point where in he/she fails. And will only stop until he/she finally got what he/she deserves to got. Never think of negatives because if you do, everything else will fail. If you want to be happy, strive to be happy.