Renewal and Reconnect.

Years with loads of experiences has passed by. Daily life experiences influenced every bit of my being. Places I’ve seen that taught me our differences in our way of living. People I’ve met who shared their life and make me understand things through them. 

We all are different but the same. We all are born and brought up differently but the same. We are all the same. We all try to live every day.

As I go through my routine, I remember I was once tried to open-up to the world. There’s a footprint I left somewhere to revisit my old habits. I can share or write anything I wanted without judgement from anyone. I was busy trying to make images and revising codes to make the blog look fancy. I do not really intend to beautify it to impress other people but myself. That’s just how I make myself engaged and to self-reflect.

This isn’t meant to become my diary. I am not even a good writer, its just an outlet of a busy mind. There are episodes in my life that brought me stones I meant to pick up and I will try to best to share it with everyone and hope that someone can get something useful from it.

This is my renewal.

Should I Stop or Should I go?

Falling in love is unexplainable. You don’t know how and why but you just felt it.
Out from your busy world, you never realize that there is someone out there looking at you and start to admire you.
As time goes by, you fall too… and it’s somehow a fulfillment when you know that he’/ she’s there to catch you. Love is in the air!!! As you go through the relationship, you begin to know each other better and deeper. You already know what he/she likes and not.
Your patience became longer. No more childish acts except when you’re just trying to be sweet. The relationship went well. The love became strong. The seed of trust has already planted and grew like tree.
But, what will you do when all of a sudden one says, due to religion matters, you can’t be together? Or Due to traditional beliefs you can’t be together?
It’s like an apple in your hand but you can’t eat it because it’s not yours and you’re not allowed to. It’s like lovely flowers from someone’s garden surrounded by high fences and you can’t pick it but only look at it.
It’s like you were driving fast on the road to catch a flight. Should you beat the red light to get there on time and fly away or Stop and let the plane go…
Beating the red light is somehow beating the rules just to be with someone you love.
But consequences are, when you beat the rules, are you ready to pay charges of your action? If you stop and let it go, are you ready to start a new life again?
Both hard…

Loving is never easy

You sometimes thought you’re okay and good.
The feeling makes you feel good
But when it comes to a situation where in
You don’t know where you’re relationship going
Makes you feel so weak and hopeless
Instead of believing yourself and the love that you have
You decided to just let it go and stop holding on.
The sad part is, you were not given a chance to prove the love that you have
You never had the chance to know if that love can possibly last.
The fear of getting hurt is the cause.
Stepping into a stone called impossible.
Not wanting to move on and try other option.
It’s a fear of taking risk.
From there, you have to start again.

Anger won't help at all

Sometimes, no matter how hard trying not to loose temper, your anger would still beat you. No matter how hard not to give offensive words, you can’t still control your mouth to shut. No matter how hard not to do things that may hurt someone; you can’t have the power over it to stop. This is because we are angry or mad at someone.

Sometimes, we decided on things when we are irritated. Do you think it is right? Do you think it will help you solve your problem? There is no good in making a decision when you are emotionally unconditioned. Am I right? That is because when we are angry, our mind and heart is listening to your other self who gives negative advice which is not helpful.

When making a decision, make sure you are in condition and no emotional discharge.
Else, everything will go wrong… Condition yourself first before doing such actions.
Anger won’t help you. You are matured enough to know when is the right time to make such actions. Be responsible enough for any actions that you may be doing.

Not Yesterday Not Tomorrow, But NOW.

There’s always a reason
…why we’ve met each other
…why I learn to love you same way you do or even more that you do.
What we know now is that, we are together.
We might not know what will happen tomorrow
But I want you to know, I love you now and I hope this will last forever.

We met different types of people for whatever reason.
Not knowing why, it’s just meant to happen.
Along the way, we started to fall to that very special person.
Starting to love everything… everything they’ve got.
As the time goes by, the love work both ways…
Share everything through the name of love.
Feels great right?
We might not know what will happen tomorrow
At least we know now, we have someone to love and to lean on.
Someone who will take care of us and someone to be taken care of.
The most important thing is now. So make the most of it till it’s not over.

Person that fits

Everybody knows nobody's perfect.
So dont always expect a perfect person.
Let's talk about how can we make a person perfect for us.
I personally dont know how. Standards are not set yet.
The big question is, do we really have to set a standard to make a person
perfect for our eyes? Wait! We are getting personal here.
Let's have some general discussions about "Perfect" or "Ideal"

Being a perfect person will always depend on what other sees you or depends on the position that fits for you.

Lets have some example here:

You are perfect to someone's eyes. You became ideal because of what that person sees on you.
Sometimes you are not aware of it but being you will always be perfect as they adore you.
For some people, you are nothing but for the person who likes you will disregard everything
negative coz you are the apple of their eyes.

You are perfect for the job. You are hired because you fits in the position. You are capable of doing such things
according to the job that you have. This is not all about the physical and emotional aspect. This is about what
you can do and what other sees on you.

We are all not perfect but we can be perfect in some things and for some people.
We can't do everything but we can be good at something and more like the ideal one.
Acceptance from other people makes us perfect.
Learning from ourselves makes us perfect too or called faultless.
Remember, "Practice makes you perfect"
See... It always work on both ways.
If you want to be good at something, you have learn and make other accept you for what you can do
and can possibly make you a person that fits.

Love battlefield

I tried to find you among these people.
I failed many times trying to look out for you.
I hurted many times to test if its really you.
I thought its all over when you suddenly came.
I thought i will never be happy again when you suddenly make me smile.
I am so thankful when I know I now have you.

Sometimes we are in a hurry finding someone you can give your sweet love.We thought we're running out of person to love.Where in every one owned one and they expected you to have one too.Funny thing right?Where is Mr/Ms Right? Now you decided to look for that person.Experimenting... Trying to love and get hurt.Till you find him/her.Now you are ready.With all the hurt you had, you are matured now to handle things.Ready to be strong with your Mr/Ms Right?Isnt nice to know that you loved someone you thought she/he would be the last butbecame the way for you to became strong and mature in handling relationship withthe person you destined to?Loving feeling... Crazy but sweetest thing that can happen to you...

Game of Love

I’ve been in love.
I know the feeling of cloud nine every time you’re with your special someone.
I know the feeling of being cared for. You were like a baby.
Every word may sound funny but keeps your heart beating so fast.

It’s so nice when you are in love right?
You have the inspiration. Keep you alive even more than 24 hours.
The smile in your face is not fading.

But, how is it when it turns everything to opposite?
What if the love fades? The sweetness fades?
The sweet words turn sour and bitter?

The feeling sometimes is like; you’re carrying tons of rock.
You feel like want to explode like a bomb.
You wish you were like a bubble then disappear after a while.

This is the game of love.
You have to experience every kind of downfalls and cloud nine.
As you play the game, play it right. You may have missed something that will make you in regret for the rest of your life.

Happy Father's Day

Its father's day!
What have you prepared something for your Dad, Papa whatever you call him?

Our father usually the bread winner in the family.
He always make sure that everything inside the house is fine.
Sometimes, we find it so strict whenever he create rules.Specially for girls, right?
It is because he want you to be safe always.Treating you were like a princess sometimes.
For the guys, of course he is a buddy.
This coming father's day, do you have any idea on what present are yougoing to give?

1. Cook food for him.-ask your mom's help bout his favorite food and cook for him.
2. Buy or create a card for him- sweet message is not that cheap. Sometimes, its the most precious thing you could give him
3. If he's working at the office, buy something he can put in his desk likecoffee cup etc.
4. A frame with pictures of the whole family.
5. Buy stuffs for him. Stuffs you know he can use.

This is just some of the tips you can do for him.Anything that comes in your mind will always be special to him.

Whatever you call her - She will always be the woman that make us whole.

A celebration of "Mother's Day" this coming second
Sunday of May.
For some, this is very special. Due to the fact that, our mother gives lot
of sacrifice in the family.
They take good care of us, cook food for us, prepare our clothes etc.
Their sweet advices and sweet I love yous melt our heart.
We all know that they are part of our growing up and the whole personality
itself. Why dont you make something special on Mother's day?

Here are some tips.

1. Give her card.
-You can create your own card out of your creativity.
-You can also buy cards in the card stand.
-The important thing here is 'The message" you can give to your mother.
It's the thought that counts

2. Know what's her fave stuffs.
-Of course you must know what stuffs she likes a lot.
-If she love's cooking, you dont you buy her something she can use in the kitchen.
-It could also be her fave dress or blouse.

3. Buy her Chocolates and Flowers.
-Something like courting your mother is a sweet thing to do too.
-YOu can also give her balloon.

4. Treat her to a spa.
-Make her feel, she dont have to think of the chores and all the stuffs in the house.
Let her relax and feel like a Queen.

5. Cook food for her.
-If you are good in cooking, why dont you prepare a food for her.
-Create a romantic table for two.
-You will be the one to manage the set, and Dad will take care of the rest. Hmmm Good idea.
-YOu can also bake a cake for her.

6. Sing for her.
-You can also let her sit for a while and give her a song that will surely melt her heart.

There are lot of things you can do to surprise your mother.
YOu dont have to spend a lot if you dont have enough budget.
What you think is special for her will always be the best.

Waking up is the hardest part.

When you’re dreaming with a broken heart, waking up is the hardest part.
I got this line from “Dreaming with a broken heart song by John Mayer”.

In a relationship, we can’t tell how long it will last and it what way it will be done or finish.
In love, we felt that unexplainable feelings. It’s true that you can’t keep yourself not smiling. A person sees you like you’re blooming and inspired over things.
The sad part of it is, when you reach a point where in a relation must stop. It is a point where in a relationship can’t work anymore for both parties.

I know it’s hard to move on especially when you really love a person.
And it takes time to heal that broken heart.

You have an option now, move on or stay in a position where in the person you love doesn’t love you anymore?

Or vice versa, tell your partner that the feeling is not mutual anymore or stay in a position where in you can’t bring back the love to your partner?

Both hard! Right? But it’s better to be true to yourself first than pretending something that you’re not.

Your Happiness will always depend on you.

I was reading some post over the internet until I saw this line “you must not depend on other person to be happy” This line made me think of something interesting in which everyone is applicable to this phrase.
All of us can be happy in different way. In order to attain happiness, you must know what those things are.

If you now know what you really want, everything else will follow.
All your happiness will always depend on you. It will always depend on the decisions that you are going to make. Along the way, hindrances or obstacles are default. You just have to use you strategy or technique to get through it. You may fail once or twice but never give up.

A person who wants to achieve something doesn’t stop at a certain point where in he/she fails. And will only stop until he/she finally got what he/she deserves to got. Never think of negatives because if you do, everything else will fail. If you want to be happy, strive to be happy.

Don’t assume unless he/she tell something.

Actions done sometimes misinterpreted. It usually happened when one of our friends in opposite sex showing behavior that puzzled us. It is normal that they will give you gifts and extra care. Yes, it is sweet but you don’t have to think of something like, he/she likes you out from the friendship borderline. It is safer to think of it as his/her way of saying “Thank you for being a good friend or buddy”

Assuming things can make you upset in the end. It can possibly make you feel embarrassed about your feelings to the point that your relationship with him/her will be affected. You will now start to move away from that person. Then, the friendship is no longer friendship. Gap will take place in between.

If he/she tells you that he/she like you, then it is up to you on how to deal with the feelings since this is way different from the usual friend relationship with that person.

Dating

Preparing yourself in a first date can be nerve-wracking sometimes. Your thinking about what will happen during the date. For ladies, it will take sometime to pick the best dress or outfit for the date even makeups and accessories to wear.First impressions is important during the first date. The best thing to do is to be yourself.Just enjoy the date with your partner. Create a good conversation with your partner and share some interest.This way, you both will start knowing each other better little by little.You dont have to pretend something that you're not.Be real.

There are chances, we may not like how the date goes.Showing unlikely manner can bring disaster to both of you.You should learn to deal with it no matter what happen.You can discuss it with your partner and maybe next time you both can make it better.

Before the date end, make sure to express that you're thankful for the chance of going out together.

When to try harder and when to walk away

There are situations in our life wherein we’ve given a chance to face or to back out.
If you know that the situation will make you a strong person and mold you for good, do not hesitate to fight back and reach the finish line. For it is a way to make you a better person.
But if you know that nothing will happen even trying and doing the best in you, why stay? Why fight? Sometimes we have to back out and look for something worth paying your attention and time.

Every woman should know how to fall in love without losing herself.

Falling in love is normal to everyone.
Expressing your love to someone doesn’t mean you have to give it all.
Understanding someone doesn’t mean you have to forget other things except for the fact that you love him. Sometimes, we have to take note that the person we love is not our world, our life or the only thing we need to live. We have to make it appoint that when we love someone, we love ourselves at the same time.
Showing how you feel to that person is always possible without hitting beyond the limitations.
If you learned to love someone, you have to learn loving yourself first.
Coz if not, the love you will be giving to someone will always be incomplete.

Are you prepared?

You may notice that most of the girls carry their bag every time they go out.
But what’s inside that bag? Hmmm… Why can’t they leave it at home?
Most of the things inside a lady’s bag is, a lip gloss/lip balm so that when you look at their lips, it makes you feel like you want to kiss her. Just kidding… Even without wearing make-ups, good color of lips or shiny lips can handle it all. You can also see a loose powder or pressed powder, so that our faces may not look oily. Our hair is very important, before going out from the rest room; we make sure that our hair looks okay.
For me, the hair can say how that lady carry herself. A mini mirror is also on the list. A mirror is a girl’s best friend. A handy mirror can help us check if we still look fine or not.
A cologne or perfume of course must not be forgotten. A good or well-dressed look is incomplete if you smell nothing. I remember one of the commercial line “What if, the hand of faith leads you to Mr. Right? Are you prepared?” that’s the reason behind these stuffs.
But the main reason is, we’re just making ourselves presentable any time and any where.

Uneasy with you

What’s odd about facing the person you admired?

We sometimes can’t control ourselves by being weird when we’re in front of that person. The strange feeling like we’re out of our mind. We can’t even talk with him/her and looking straight in their eyes.
We sometimes can’t speak normally, we stutter. This is because we’re in tense and afraid of making mistake in front of that person. We feel nervous. At the same time, we don’t want to create things that will trigger a “Turn off” factor. As much as possible, everything should always be fine and good in front of him/her.
Sometimes, when we saw that person getting near, we do not know what to do.
We seemed like we’re on a rush. We make sure we look good. We can’t just seat there and relax. We pretend we didn’t notice that person. We’re acting busy.
Funny though, but I believe everyone knows how it feels. If not, then you’re not a human. If you would notice how funny to watch every girls or boys reaction at their young age when it comes to crushes. Sometimes, even a candy wrapper was kept especially when that candy was given by their crush. And sometimes, not to open the candy and keep it in a bottle or box forever until the feeling is gone. It sounds funny but true.

"Clumsy"

Fergie
Can't help itThe girl can't help it [repeat 3x]

First time

That I saw your eyes

Boy you looked right through me, mmmhmm

Play it cool

But I knew you knew

That cupid hit me, mmm mmm

[Chorus:]You got me tripping, stumbling, flipping, fumbling

Clumsy cause I'm falling in love

You got me slipping, tumbling, sinking, fumbling

Clumsy cause I'm falling in love

So in love with you

Can't help itThe girl can't help it [repeat 3x]

Can't breath,When you touch my sleeve

Butterflies so crazy, mmm mmm

Whoa now, think I'm going down

Friends don't know whats with me, mmm mmm

[Chorus]
Can't help it.The girl can't help it [repeat 3x]

You know, this isn't the first time this has happened to me

This love sick thing

I like serious relationships and a

A girl like me don't stay single for long

Cause everytime a boyfriend and I break up

My world is crushed and I'm all alone

The love bug crawls right back up and bites me and I'm back

Loving too much can lead to failed relationship

Sometimes, your partner probably thinks he/she can do anything because he/she knows one can’t stand without him/her.
This usually happened when one’s love is not real or not enough to keep the relationship or maybe the love that both have turned blue. The magnet isn’t working now to keep you both together.
Forgiveness and understanding your partner is one key to keep the relationship.
But when that thing happens most of the time with the same reason, you have to watch out. Your relationship is getting bad. If you'll just going to ignore these signs, your partner might keep on doing things that make you both failed. This makes you both not grow.
In a relationship, you should consider both party. You have to make it appoint that you both are working to keep it strong. Guarantee each other that the feeling is true and no fooling around. If someone failed to, talk about it… It’s better to talk about anything and be open about each other’s feeling than guessing if you both still are okay.

Hate that I love you - Rihanna ft Neyo

That's much I love you (yeah) That's how much I need you (yeah, yeah, yeah) And I can’t stand ya Most everything you do make me wanna smile Can I not like you for awhile (No..)

But you won’t let me You upset me girl and then you kiss my lips All of a sudden I forget that I was upset Can’t remember what you did But I hate it

You know exactly what to do So that I can’t stay mad at you For too long, that’s wrong

But, I hate it You know exactly how to touch So that I don’t wanna fuss and fight no more Said I despise that I adore you

And I hate how much I love you boy (yeah) I can’t stand how much I need you (I need you) And I hate how much I love you boy (ooh) But I just can’t let you go And I hate that I love you so..

And you completely know the power that you have The only one that makes me laugh

Said and it’s not fair how you take advantage of the fact that I Love you beyond a reason why And it just ain’t right

One of these days maybe your magic won’t affect me And your kiss won’t make me weak But no one in this world knows me the way you know me So you’ll probably always have a spell on me.. (yeah~oooh~)

And I hate how much I love you boy (Hey) I can’t stand how much I need you (I can’t stand how much I need you) And I hate how much I love you boy (yeah...ooh) But I just can’t let you go (But I just can’t let you go, no) And I hate that I love you so

Life has never been that wonderful without them -- Friends

True friends are really hard to find... Many has come but few are left to stand beside you and to join you through good times and bad times....

Though there are times that there were misunderstanding, the aim of being a true friend will never change...
Friends are always there to share a stupid things like hell that will make both of you laugh till you drop and even cry... they can share a tear to join you in your loneliness...they can give you their sweet smile to cheer you up...

sometimes a corny jokes will do to lighten up your feelings... they can give you like a mom's comfort and care...
Friends are your reflection... They are your mirror... True friends can tell whats going on.... They can give you the admiring comments for you to continue doing things that are good....and the worst praise to let you know what they feel about you so you can improve yourself... And For you to change something unwanted...

They can help you to see things clearly... To view things the way it should be.... They can share what they know to help you understand things... They can help you see how beautiful, worst, dangerous, exciting, adventurous and wonderful life can be...
Cherish every moment with them... they are for keeps....